Set Adrift II

Set Adrift with no sight in view.

It seems that I've been bouncing up and down on the waves of life for some time now, awaiting a non existent rescue. There are times that it seems as if there is something, or someone, on the horizon but it turns out to only be a figment of my imagination. The sight and thoughts of this much needed rescue raises the spirits only to have them sink back to the bottom of the darkest depths.

It's funny how events and situations play out in ones life. Just when you finally, after so many years, start to see that small flicker of light at the end of the tunnel, only to have it smolder, burn out and the tunnel collapse down on top of you.

That's basically how I've been feeling lately. Between all of the hectic things going on at work and the non existence of a personal life and lacking that special someone, I seem to be in that stagnation frame of mind. It gets rather depressing at times, but what can one do but stay the course and forge ahead without looking back.

I really thought that there was a chance i'd be reconnected with the one I thought, dreamt and prayed, I was meant to be with. But it turns out that I would be forgotten, betrayed, left behind, dropped like some bad habit. That would turnout to be quite a blow to my system, paralyzing yet painfully sharp like a dagger right through what was left of my heart.

I guess I should have seen it coming, with the absence of phone calls, visits, lesser and lesser text messages and instant messages. I gave and I gave for what, heartache and emptiness. I guess being the nice guy doesn't pay, but that has always been the case in my life. What gets me is that i would drop whatever i was doing, go out of my way, give what little I had at times, to help this person in all of their times of needs. And to think I would have been happy with one last goodbye, one last hug, one last kiss. I guess I never really was the one that I thought I could be, just a fool for believing it all. Maybe more the sucker.

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Lost & Found. ......and Lost Again.

It's funny in life how people come, people go, and in the very strange and untimely instances come back into ones life. I had the pleasure to have someone special come back into my life, in a rather distant capacity, but never the less, better than nothing, as i kept telling myself.

One would only hope that this special person would be present more and more as time passed, but it seems that they actually drifted farther and farther away, to the point of no contact at all leading back to the original feeling of the emptiness and darkness. Funny how things in life do come full circle.

And now for something completely different;

I know that this probably doesn't make a bit of sense to any of you, but they are just some ramblings that i needed to get out of my head, not to mention trying out this new blogspot app for my iPad. I certainly do encourage those of you into writing to get your own blog presence on the web as it has been a great outlet for me to just get thoughts out of my head and work on my writing as at times it can be very therapeutic. Give it a try sometime..!!!

Oh well, that's about it for now, just vegging here at Starbucks, listening to some tunes and working on a few things. Hope everyone is having a great Friday evening and has an even better weekend.

Shawn



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