Apathetic Overload

After a sluggish start of the week, things are starting to pickup somewhat. The past two days of work were sort of trying, having that "I wish I wasn't here at work" feeling. I can't really recall the last time I had that thought flowing throughout me, maybe I need a little vacation or some time away. Now that I have the car on the road, a little road trip might me in order, just have to come up with a plan now and figure out what I want to do.

I'm sort of counting days at work because I don't know how much longer I'll have said job. The business might be closing due to lack of monies coming in and it would be a shame should the place close. We do a lot of good and help a lot of people beat the disease of addiction and alcoholism, it just gets to me, how four owners who for the most part are way beyond well off and don't want to put money into the business to keep it going. I guess it's just me and I suppose only time will tell. I'm going to start looking for others things though, Nothing worse than having all of ones eggs in a falling basket. I just seem to be going from one day to the next, one at a time, and not really looking that far ahead into the future, seems that having gone through treatment and recovery in the past, I tend to live for the moment and not read into things as deep as I should.

The other part of my life that seems to be lagging is the one that contains that special someone. I, for the most part, gave up on seeking out the one that my life is lacking. I thought that I would just put it on the shelf for a little while and should something happen, I'd let it happen, so that's where I'm at now with that, it just bothers me every now and then that I haven't found anyone remotely close to wanting a relationship. Seems that the guys who treat women like objects, play toys, possessions and one night stands are getting all the ladies. Can you explain that one to me ladies.??

Again, the ranting that is Shawn.